DePriVed Of LovE

She was smiling right in front of me,
And I could not move my eyes off her…
She must surely be an angel, I had thought,
Or maybe it was another of my dreams…

In the distance I could hear laughter,
Everything was so unclear and hazy…
Maybe it was the coke that I cracked,
Sometimes I am desperate to forget…

I wept, silently, so that no-one heard,
Then I wiped her memories off my cheeks…
The fragrance was typical of its kind,
Maybe it was the smoke from the cigar…

Life is difficult to understand sometimes,
Nevertheless I am alive and breathing…
The dream which was once a reality,
Still runs through my imaginations…

I am not insane, neither am I a lunatic,
I am just another man deprived of love…

i m da rider of da storm

** StIll**

Still flow still waters
In seasoned streams
through ravaged deserts
to un-seen disappearances;
Like trapped water
stagnating,
no way , no cracks
no secret clues......
Unaffected, yet changed
Still water stays;
Visual seasons
Still, changing leaves
drink on-
on this storage wine;
Thorns guard peripheries
Holding movement to Still
Grazed, green moss of
untold days, unscraped Still;
A flowing path to hell's doors
Opens, from all sides
unmoving liquid is moulded
Into a raped angel's grave.

i love da way shez used da word still n da whole thing is like soo wonderfully written .. love it not mine .. bt i felt itz worth sharin ..

I StiLL woNDer WHy

Laying at night feeling lonely and empty
Will u ever just think about me?
Will you ever regret u had lost me?
Will u ever be able to see?

Will a single true tear drop
Ever be falling down from your eyes?
Will u ever remind me
Looking up at the shining sad stars?

Will u ever be sighing so heavy
When u hear our favorite songs?
Will u finally burst out crying,
Realizing there’s no me beside you..
Realizing there’s no one to hold?

Will u whisper my name in the silence
When your friends cannot hear what u say?
Will u ever feel wanting to find me
To get back, to embrace and to stay?

But I know there’s only one person
Who will cry and feel tortured of break
Who will hope… with no possible hope
Who would like to let go and forget.

Who wakes up at cold midnights
With an image of face in the mind.
Who is watching the moon in the black sky
Thinking about u and wanting to hide.

I’m the one, who will always remember,
Who’ll regret and feel guilty and blue
I’m the one saying “love u and hate u”
I’m the one feeling bad without u…..


an inspiration thank u ..

HeR SeCrET gARdEn

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her life
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart if you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget
She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there

She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away


ItZ sOO tRU i Was alwayz A miLLiON mILez AWAY fRM hEr SEcret gARdEN haHa .. GOd savE ma sOUl

tHE SILenCe OF thE NighT

Tonight let’s spend some time together, you and I.
It seems it was aeons ago that we giggled merrily;
Finding heavenly bliss in each other’s company.
But this night is special in ways more than one;
For I have found the courage to talk to you again.

Often in lonely hours I look back at those treasures,
Which now seem lost like strangers in alien lanes.
I smile when reminded of the twinkle in your eyes;
Which seemed so innocent on those moonlit nights,
When Apollo weaved silvery robes for the dancing leaves.

But now there is nothing but silence between us;
Neither you, nor I try to bridge this divide.
Where our eyes could talk in silent conversations,
Even words have lost their meaning in this void.
So tonight let’s spend some time together, you and I.

I stare blankly into the icy cold of your eyes;
In search of warmth that had once seemed infinite.
Misunderstandings have wedged us miles apart;
None should blame the other, for we never tried.
Tonight leave the words aside, let silence do the talking.
So tonight let’s spend some time together, you and I.

da nItE tHAT i CANt ForGET

The Beast InSidE ( FrM sm 1- 2 me)

Lurking at the edges of my mind, the familiar dark ethereal form.
Burning through my veins in the silent midnight, a sleek liquid storm.

With eyes narrowed I sound a deafening yowl.
The primal catalyst which restores the natural hum of the night.

Claws flexed and sharpened, big teeth white and chalky.
Ready to feast on a local neighbourhood Yorkie.

Surveying from above with eyes akin to the luminious moon.
Listening to all the toms eagerly strain and croon.

Clear,Crisp footsteps resound in the cold moon-lit street.

Observing the frailty of the human mortality, the hunt begins once more.

Driven by the insensate pounding of the drum by the ancient mistress on her ebony black throne.

Ripped weak flesh and arterial spray to sate the eternal hunger, cursed by the cold cruel crone.

Twin brown eyes, half-hidden under the bridge, driven back into the shadows by the slow creeping dawn.

Twin brown eyes, waiting for the city to sleep again, then to devour flesh torn and blood frothy warm.


some one wrote this for me n i just love it hehe think they just got me.. wen i first read what she had sent n it was like omg .. seriously itz beautifull..may

WithouT u

Without You,
The bright sunshine during the day,
Seems dull and grey.
The warmth and the love therein,
The clouds of seperation take away.

Without You,
Dusk seems so lonely,
Defeated myself when i observe,
Lost in the halo of you.

Without You,
Nights at the window i sit picturing you,
The dew on my aspect and the twilight reflecting,
A mirage i see in my eyes, of you,
You not there, leaving me without you.

The little Voices in my head...

The little Voices in my head...

I listen to the lil voices in my head
which say ,you wont go much ahead
then another thought flashes by
as the saying on my wall catches my eye
Those who think they will fail have failed
And there i go , squashing the lil voices in my head
They creep, they crawl and at my deepest fears they gnaw
keeping me at a vulnerable cross road , self doubt ,mistrust
in my mind they load ,oh please, someone squash these voices in my head.
They call it self control, then why do these tears roll as relations take its toll.
I grovel in the sands of time , craving for the reassurance that she's only mine
Some one please sqaush these voices in my head.


ppl think they knw me ... bt i think i dunno my self then how do they knw me.. da lil voice keep me thinkin who i am n wat i want just anotha thing outta diz trash brain

ALAS!! T’WAS JUST A DREAM

ALAS!! T’WAS JUST A DREAM

I wonder how life could be so kind on me,
To shower me with all its fragrance,
And immerse me, within joy abound,
That for a lifetime is plentiful benevolence.

I may have done someday,
Magnanimous deeds of kindness,
That I happen to have lived this way,
In generous love and fondness

So much love and so much care,
I thought would lead me there.
The tender words mothered my soul,
My life I would stake, I swear.

The cajoling touch, the balmy smile,
In my heart, I gathered them there.
The sparkle of the eyes, I kept in wrap,
My nights would no longer stare.

But alas!! Truth prevails,
And I am awakened from deep slumber.
The dream I lived with in my sleep,
Is history that I may now remember?

Before my very eyes,
I see my dream stumble.
And being battered to an appalling end,
Where I can see it pitilessly crumble.

What error would I commit, only if I dreamt a bit
I am all but a human, who keeps desires within.
But fate has it unruly,
Dislodging me, from the place I mistook in my dream, My Home
Restoring the torment I’ve lived with,
And which I shall live with here on, all alone


it was just a dream i cant write this hehe itz just too good ..frm my secret friend for all ma friendz

Dont wanna Go but Cant really Stay..

Dont wanna Go but Cant really Stay..

Hold on to me,
Don’t let me go
But I would love to die in your arms,
Coz I love you so..

Your touch,
Brings me a glow
Just a thought of going apart,
And my heart drops low..

My heart is still beating,
Coz I can see you smile
Stay here,
Before I go, wanna see you for a while..

I don’t fear death anymore,
Coz I am here in your arms
Your twinkling eyes,
Still holds the magic that charms..

Don’t really wanna leave you and go,
But I can’t help it,
Its destined and I just cant stay anymore..


bt i just cant stay.. i dunno why .. what do u say..wud also lyk to mention few ppl helped me wid diz so kudoz to em tooo